belief
last saturday, i was in office till 7pm. the work that i do, makes me feel like many others like me "why am i here?" this question even if answered vividly is not able to free us because we are bound to reach office next day, to meet our targets and deadlines!
when i shared this feeling with a senior in office, he told me "life is like that. one enjoys with his girlfriend and both have great time together but when they get married it gets boring but one has to adjust. similarly when we get a job we feel great and then slowly it gets monotonous and we have to adjust. accept it" i didnt say anything in response but internally i rebelled to this idea of "life being an adjustment". why was i feeling rebellious? i asked myself. my belief in trust and love as the pillars of life, was the reason i could find. it was my belief to pursue one's passion, that couldnt accept this idea of adjustment.
with this introspection going on in my head, i left my desk and was walking to the metro station. suddenly i realized that it was saturday and a friend had told me that every saturday their is a program of "gurmat sangeet" in guruduara of sector 18, noida. i decided to "experiment" and boarded the metro for noida. their was no logic which motivated me. it was belief. rather it seemed the shaking of my belief that motivated me to have this experience.
gurmat sangeet is singing gurbani (from guru granth sahib) in ragas. when i came to delhi, i wished to learn gurmat sangeet but i postponed it till i settle. i also felt that i was not into the religious practices followed by sikhism. the meaning of gurbani was again not evident which made me feel that the message is not propagated. this was running on my mind as i progressed towards the guruduara. as i entered, i saw a notice displayed "learn gurmat sangeet" the teachers and the corresponding timings were mentioned. i was surprized and smiled. i went inside and sat in a corner. i was happy to have reached the right place. as the raagis were singing, i started spotting a variation from my picture of gurmat sangeet and a larger similarity to hindustani classical music that i was learning. the alaaps, taans were present and the text was sung like the bandish. musically i felt connected a lot. now as i started concentrating on the text, i began understanding it partially. i was at peace
as my belief stared to fade in the experiment, in the meaningfulness and relevance of it, the tabla stopped and to my amazement the musical presentation transcended into a religious discourse, explaining the text and clearing all my doubts. it was written by "bhagat kabir" i could now feel totally connected with what all i was experiencing. the next "jatha"(group) was from golden temple, amritsar. as their performance began, a series of vibrations went through me. it seemed perfect. as i opened my eyes after a minute, i noticed a screen being projected on the wall infront of me and displaying a text from gurbani and its meaning in english and punjabi. it was great use of technology but seemed a distraction and i started concentrating on the performance. as i listened a verse 2-3 times, i looked up at the screen and found that the same was being displayed. this was beyond anything i could think of at that time. i dont know how, but all the text was hence displayed clarifying everything.
lastly "katha" (discourse) took place. various aspects of our lives were touched but i could listen one thing more loudly that "you have come here with God's wish!"
as i walked back, this thought revolved round my head. i couldnt get an answer but i was amazed at how perfectly my questions and doubts were cleared and a way seemed clear ahead. i was walking back with beliefs strengthened and a mind with more freedom and my heart singing with the tune of the surroundings.
some changes have started to come and life is going to take a turn soon. :)
when i shared this feeling with a senior in office, he told me "life is like that. one enjoys with his girlfriend and both have great time together but when they get married it gets boring but one has to adjust. similarly when we get a job we feel great and then slowly it gets monotonous and we have to adjust. accept it" i didnt say anything in response but internally i rebelled to this idea of "life being an adjustment". why was i feeling rebellious? i asked myself. my belief in trust and love as the pillars of life, was the reason i could find. it was my belief to pursue one's passion, that couldnt accept this idea of adjustment.
with this introspection going on in my head, i left my desk and was walking to the metro station. suddenly i realized that it was saturday and a friend had told me that every saturday their is a program of "gurmat sangeet" in guruduara of sector 18, noida. i decided to "experiment" and boarded the metro for noida. their was no logic which motivated me. it was belief. rather it seemed the shaking of my belief that motivated me to have this experience.
gurmat sangeet is singing gurbani (from guru granth sahib) in ragas. when i came to delhi, i wished to learn gurmat sangeet but i postponed it till i settle. i also felt that i was not into the religious practices followed by sikhism. the meaning of gurbani was again not evident which made me feel that the message is not propagated. this was running on my mind as i progressed towards the guruduara. as i entered, i saw a notice displayed "learn gurmat sangeet" the teachers and the corresponding timings were mentioned. i was surprized and smiled. i went inside and sat in a corner. i was happy to have reached the right place. as the raagis were singing, i started spotting a variation from my picture of gurmat sangeet and a larger similarity to hindustani classical music that i was learning. the alaaps, taans were present and the text was sung like the bandish. musically i felt connected a lot. now as i started concentrating on the text, i began understanding it partially. i was at peace
as my belief stared to fade in the experiment, in the meaningfulness and relevance of it, the tabla stopped and to my amazement the musical presentation transcended into a religious discourse, explaining the text and clearing all my doubts. it was written by "bhagat kabir" i could now feel totally connected with what all i was experiencing. the next "jatha"(group) was from golden temple, amritsar. as their performance began, a series of vibrations went through me. it seemed perfect. as i opened my eyes after a minute, i noticed a screen being projected on the wall infront of me and displaying a text from gurbani and its meaning in english and punjabi. it was great use of technology but seemed a distraction and i started concentrating on the performance. as i listened a verse 2-3 times, i looked up at the screen and found that the same was being displayed. this was beyond anything i could think of at that time. i dont know how, but all the text was hence displayed clarifying everything.
lastly "katha" (discourse) took place. various aspects of our lives were touched but i could listen one thing more loudly that "you have come here with God's wish!"
as i walked back, this thought revolved round my head. i couldnt get an answer but i was amazed at how perfectly my questions and doubts were cleared and a way seemed clear ahead. i was walking back with beliefs strengthened and a mind with more freedom and my heart singing with the tune of the surroundings.
some changes have started to come and life is going to take a turn soon. :)
Keep up the good work.
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