a loser or a winner?-part 3-MANAGING FUNDS
Working in a public sector company has a high social value in india. with high social value it gives a good economic value in terms of salary and perks. why do people generally resign?
1. for doing a work with higher social value.
2. for a higher economic value.
i believe there are some errors in these parameters:
in point 1, when we say social value, we refer to society. but what is our society right now. a divided society into classes and castes. the growing middle class of india has developed some values which govern people like us. so its not about being valuable to the whole society. its not again about being valuable to the middle class. its more like reaching somewhere to be respected rather than being valuable.
in point 2, the error seems to have a cancerous view of economics. we never calculate how much money we need. no amount seems to satisfy us. secondly, is only why does money hold such a prime position? is it economical to earn the most? or is it economical to have the most optimum living cost?
70% of the salary, i was sending home. my parents opened more accounts to put all that in savings. i never needed the money that i sent home. but this made me realize that my parents even don't. this was in background of people who dont even have food to eat. while i crossed restaurants, showrooms and liquor shops (the 3 most visited places to spend money) on roads of delhi, i used to wonder and ask myself if all these were needed. the time i spent with some people, music etc seemed to be fulfilling. i just could not get addicted to "things". my few pair of clothes seemed to cover me well, simple food seemed to keep me in great health and not having liquor seemed to keep me thoughtful and continuously aware.
the work in office makes one frustrated and then one finds the option of spending money and living in luxuries. i did not wish to grow so weak. office was also acting as a hindrance to what i wished to do. it ate up my time. i tried to find out what is this job giving me. personal value-NO, social value-YES, intellectual growth-NO, monetary growth-YES, health-NO(my belly was bulging out), medical insurance-YES, happiness-NO, frustration-YES and so on. i began realizing that it was not giving me what i actually wanted. The most important realization was the fact that it was giving me money a lot more than my needs. but if one has no job, one still has expenditures. i had to make sure that by some means i had to earn minimum of that value.
i had tried one option during my college- physics home tuitions. in cities like delhi, home tutors are well-paid. i made a promise that when i leave my job (which will be one month after giving resignation letter), i should be earning the minimum amount that i needed, which was roughly 15000 rs. though i kept a factor of safety. i thought of not sending the next month's salary home to have a backup. this was disappointing to my parents but i had to end this, which was becoming a habit. there are a lot of tuition bureaus. the first one i registered was an online one. it didnt give results. i could search for one being run by IITians. i registered with them and got the first appointment 20 days after my search. the first class was to be a trial class. i made all the preparations, previous year question papers, syllabus etc. from office, i got in the metro and reached there at around 6 pm. it was physics class 12th. after the trial class, i hoped to get the good news. but i was told that they have to take 2 more trials of msc teachers. and they asked me to wait. i was also told that they wanted just 8 classes a month.
as i was walking back on the road that lead to the metro station, i felt weak and small. the road was dark and i was not wanting to move towards the well-lit area i could see. i was not wishing to be seen or to be asked,"what the hell are you doing?", "do you think life is easy?" i had decided to give resignation in 2 weeks and my target seemed far. i was nowhere. suddenly all the questions of the world started over-powering me. i started thinking that how can an engineer be a better teacher than a msc, who is actually a teacher of science! my self-belief was shaken.
i decided to give more time, if i dont get tuitions. i reached home and straightaway started practicing my music lesson. as i finished, i was relaxed. i started recollecting how i enjoyed taking the trial class. i realized that being an electrical engineer, i can teach electricity and magnetism better than others! and i began looking at how at one point in my life i coudnt even speak well! amidst the contradicting situations of life, i slept with a smile. i couldnt share this experience, fearful of being charged of the crime of "over-complicating life". i waited and in 2 days, i got a call to confirm my "appointment as a home tutor" with 14 classes a month. this felt like getting a job in a MNC. this gave me the confidence. i decided to search for more options which might take more commission but should guarantee classes. i found one such option and registered. the same day, i got an assignment. this place was far-off but thanks to delhi metro, i decided to go. this time, i was confirmed there only. i had hence reached my break-even point.
now i had to find the right time to resign. but i decided to visit home before that to talk to parents who were still not sure what was going on. i told them all that had happened. they were not happy obviously. but i realized i was not a 4-year old now. i wished that they should not lose belief in me. i made them understand that i am responsible and not running away. infront of my confidence, they did not try to influence me.
when i returned back, there was to be a workshop of some of my friends in my office. it was a two day program. i decided to give my resignation on the second day of the program. the workshop was good and i met my friends with whom i had joined the company. i was observing everything differently that day. as the workshop finished, i went straight into office of my boss to give the resignation letter.
more to come in next posts!!
1. for doing a work with higher social value.
2. for a higher economic value.
i believe there are some errors in these parameters:
in point 1, when we say social value, we refer to society. but what is our society right now. a divided society into classes and castes. the growing middle class of india has developed some values which govern people like us. so its not about being valuable to the whole society. its not again about being valuable to the middle class. its more like reaching somewhere to be respected rather than being valuable.
in point 2, the error seems to have a cancerous view of economics. we never calculate how much money we need. no amount seems to satisfy us. secondly, is only why does money hold such a prime position? is it economical to earn the most? or is it economical to have the most optimum living cost?
70% of the salary, i was sending home. my parents opened more accounts to put all that in savings. i never needed the money that i sent home. but this made me realize that my parents even don't. this was in background of people who dont even have food to eat. while i crossed restaurants, showrooms and liquor shops (the 3 most visited places to spend money) on roads of delhi, i used to wonder and ask myself if all these were needed. the time i spent with some people, music etc seemed to be fulfilling. i just could not get addicted to "things". my few pair of clothes seemed to cover me well, simple food seemed to keep me in great health and not having liquor seemed to keep me thoughtful and continuously aware.
the work in office makes one frustrated and then one finds the option of spending money and living in luxuries. i did not wish to grow so weak. office was also acting as a hindrance to what i wished to do. it ate up my time. i tried to find out what is this job giving me. personal value-NO, social value-YES, intellectual growth-NO, monetary growth-YES, health-NO(my belly was bulging out), medical insurance-YES, happiness-NO, frustration-YES and so on. i began realizing that it was not giving me what i actually wanted. The most important realization was the fact that it was giving me money a lot more than my needs. but if one has no job, one still has expenditures. i had to make sure that by some means i had to earn minimum of that value.
i had tried one option during my college- physics home tuitions. in cities like delhi, home tutors are well-paid. i made a promise that when i leave my job (which will be one month after giving resignation letter), i should be earning the minimum amount that i needed, which was roughly 15000 rs. though i kept a factor of safety. i thought of not sending the next month's salary home to have a backup. this was disappointing to my parents but i had to end this, which was becoming a habit. there are a lot of tuition bureaus. the first one i registered was an online one. it didnt give results. i could search for one being run by IITians. i registered with them and got the first appointment 20 days after my search. the first class was to be a trial class. i made all the preparations, previous year question papers, syllabus etc. from office, i got in the metro and reached there at around 6 pm. it was physics class 12th. after the trial class, i hoped to get the good news. but i was told that they have to take 2 more trials of msc teachers. and they asked me to wait. i was also told that they wanted just 8 classes a month.
as i was walking back on the road that lead to the metro station, i felt weak and small. the road was dark and i was not wanting to move towards the well-lit area i could see. i was not wishing to be seen or to be asked,"what the hell are you doing?", "do you think life is easy?" i had decided to give resignation in 2 weeks and my target seemed far. i was nowhere. suddenly all the questions of the world started over-powering me. i started thinking that how can an engineer be a better teacher than a msc, who is actually a teacher of science! my self-belief was shaken.
i decided to give more time, if i dont get tuitions. i reached home and straightaway started practicing my music lesson. as i finished, i was relaxed. i started recollecting how i enjoyed taking the trial class. i realized that being an electrical engineer, i can teach electricity and magnetism better than others! and i began looking at how at one point in my life i coudnt even speak well! amidst the contradicting situations of life, i slept with a smile. i couldnt share this experience, fearful of being charged of the crime of "over-complicating life". i waited and in 2 days, i got a call to confirm my "appointment as a home tutor" with 14 classes a month. this felt like getting a job in a MNC. this gave me the confidence. i decided to search for more options which might take more commission but should guarantee classes. i found one such option and registered. the same day, i got an assignment. this place was far-off but thanks to delhi metro, i decided to go. this time, i was confirmed there only. i had hence reached my break-even point.
now i had to find the right time to resign. but i decided to visit home before that to talk to parents who were still not sure what was going on. i told them all that had happened. they were not happy obviously. but i realized i was not a 4-year old now. i wished that they should not lose belief in me. i made them understand that i am responsible and not running away. infront of my confidence, they did not try to influence me.
when i returned back, there was to be a workshop of some of my friends in my office. it was a two day program. i decided to give my resignation on the second day of the program. the workshop was good and i met my friends with whom i had joined the company. i was observing everything differently that day. as the workshop finished, i went straight into office of my boss to give the resignation letter.
more to come in next posts!!
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