a loser or a winner?-part 2
in part 1 of this post topic, i had mentioned about my decision to resign from work and the social responses towards it and my own perceptions. i found a need to dig deep into what i meant by calling my job as "wastage of time"! it also is important to know what was it, that i considered utilization of time and life.
a. OUR LIFE-GRAPHS- we all have been conditioned to have a successful, respectable, ever-growing career graph. this has lead to creation of systems including our education system that has ceased to be human-centric. so much we have crammed, so much we have read and forgotten, so much we have grasped and vomited out on our exam sheets! for what? just to keep climbing the growth graph. before a child begins to recognize the beauty of a flower, of a sunset and long before he/she is able to recognize the inner beauty, the child is already in a school surrounded by so many subjects to be read. he is taught again to work to get a star on his notebook or a chocolate. he looses interest in the beautiful stars in the sky and learns to be attracted to things and desires. he has to learn that life is a race. sadly when all this happens, the child has no clue about all this change. as years pass-by, getting good marks represents a child as good. by now, questions like,"who am i?";"what is the purpose of life?" which has motivated human race, start loosing meaning. one is busy climbing up the graph. things keep happening and life unfolds. and then we have distinctions in education field as arts, commerce and science. i have always been confused why am i interested in both art and science till the time i realized that they are not two different things. the difference has been created and sadly one is looked lower than the other. when i studied music theory, i could see a complex hidden science of great value(not economic value though!). but having not understood our real strengths and having accepted education just as a ladder to success, our beliefs of fear and insecurity are born. we start believing that having a particular comfortable life is right. having that particular asset is gonna work. and we sit in our comfort zones. do we reach where the graph had promised us to take?
b. THE EFFECTS- when we spend our life climbing the growth graph, 3 problems arise:
1. we keep doing things which we dont have a reason to do
2. being busy and involved, we dont get time to know ourselves and our interests
3. rather than 1000 people running in 100 races of their interest, we have 800 having no option to run (a social issue though), 150 have to move out of a single crowded race (say race to be engineer) and have to take up other races (some of them choose to be criminals and some choose to be policemen, creating such new employment options). and 50 are left out of which still lesser complete that race. a bigger tragedy is that 99 other races dont take place due to this.
the problem is not in running but in running blindly. competition has to be fair. this is something like a ball rolling down the incline. we keep rolling till we hit something, or we wear out ourselves and till we realize that an inner force is capable of changing the motion of our life. it would take time to realize but we would already be running in the race!
like when i realized that education is not about gaining knowledge, i had already gathered lot of it with a free gift of "ego". ego is the biggest thing to be tackled when one has to listen to one's heart.
c. WHAT DO I REALLY WANT?
being working in a company for some months, i had realized that it was not adding value to my life. it was not what i wished but a probabilistic result of the growth graph. but i had to know what i wanted! i realized that happiness is what matters, that we are all one and that service to others is the best way to serve ourselves. these realizations had no intersections with my job. it had been great how i met a person co-incidently who became my guru into the world of music. finally, i could establish and feel a connection with music and things started working. in the library of my office i read a beautiful book on classical music theory. it transformed me. some great documentaries on music opened up the music world for me and i could see opportunities and my life etched somewhere there! i created time table for music practice, maintained notes and made sure i completed my lessons. it worked! i realized this was going to be an integral part of my life. doing research in field of engineering motivated me too as a means to serve humanity. i digged deep into it to find out the specific area of research. i had to do something relevant to the common man. bingo, i found it! i had cleared all the questions, except one. how to manage my funds? which i had to, if i leave my job! this comes up in the next part!
and yes, for me the job was "wastage of time" which is relevant to my belief system and not a general result. it just means that when i was sure about doing something else, there was no point in continuing something i was not interested. it is never possible to do something great this way!
a. OUR LIFE-GRAPHS- we all have been conditioned to have a successful, respectable, ever-growing career graph. this has lead to creation of systems including our education system that has ceased to be human-centric. so much we have crammed, so much we have read and forgotten, so much we have grasped and vomited out on our exam sheets! for what? just to keep climbing the growth graph. before a child begins to recognize the beauty of a flower, of a sunset and long before he/she is able to recognize the inner beauty, the child is already in a school surrounded by so many subjects to be read. he is taught again to work to get a star on his notebook or a chocolate. he looses interest in the beautiful stars in the sky and learns to be attracted to things and desires. he has to learn that life is a race. sadly when all this happens, the child has no clue about all this change. as years pass-by, getting good marks represents a child as good. by now, questions like,"who am i?";"what is the purpose of life?" which has motivated human race, start loosing meaning. one is busy climbing up the graph. things keep happening and life unfolds. and then we have distinctions in education field as arts, commerce and science. i have always been confused why am i interested in both art and science till the time i realized that they are not two different things. the difference has been created and sadly one is looked lower than the other. when i studied music theory, i could see a complex hidden science of great value(not economic value though!). but having not understood our real strengths and having accepted education just as a ladder to success, our beliefs of fear and insecurity are born. we start believing that having a particular comfortable life is right. having that particular asset is gonna work. and we sit in our comfort zones. do we reach where the graph had promised us to take?
b. THE EFFECTS- when we spend our life climbing the growth graph, 3 problems arise:
1. we keep doing things which we dont have a reason to do
2. being busy and involved, we dont get time to know ourselves and our interests
3. rather than 1000 people running in 100 races of their interest, we have 800 having no option to run (a social issue though), 150 have to move out of a single crowded race (say race to be engineer) and have to take up other races (some of them choose to be criminals and some choose to be policemen, creating such new employment options). and 50 are left out of which still lesser complete that race. a bigger tragedy is that 99 other races dont take place due to this.
the problem is not in running but in running blindly. competition has to be fair. this is something like a ball rolling down the incline. we keep rolling till we hit something, or we wear out ourselves and till we realize that an inner force is capable of changing the motion of our life. it would take time to realize but we would already be running in the race!
like when i realized that education is not about gaining knowledge, i had already gathered lot of it with a free gift of "ego". ego is the biggest thing to be tackled when one has to listen to one's heart.
c. WHAT DO I REALLY WANT?
being working in a company for some months, i had realized that it was not adding value to my life. it was not what i wished but a probabilistic result of the growth graph. but i had to know what i wanted! i realized that happiness is what matters, that we are all one and that service to others is the best way to serve ourselves. these realizations had no intersections with my job. it had been great how i met a person co-incidently who became my guru into the world of music. finally, i could establish and feel a connection with music and things started working. in the library of my office i read a beautiful book on classical music theory. it transformed me. some great documentaries on music opened up the music world for me and i could see opportunities and my life etched somewhere there! i created time table for music practice, maintained notes and made sure i completed my lessons. it worked! i realized this was going to be an integral part of my life. doing research in field of engineering motivated me too as a means to serve humanity. i digged deep into it to find out the specific area of research. i had to do something relevant to the common man. bingo, i found it! i had cleared all the questions, except one. how to manage my funds? which i had to, if i leave my job! this comes up in the next part!
and yes, for me the job was "wastage of time" which is relevant to my belief system and not a general result. it just means that when i was sure about doing something else, there was no point in continuing something i was not interested. it is never possible to do something great this way!
I very unfortunate system me have, we focus on area that a not at all of any prime concern, ever since beginning we are just taught to win the race...!
ReplyDeleteBig question is, Does that race ever ends....?
No never it cannot end at all, and by the time we release, what we are running for, its actually too late by then.